Obsession

I'm searching within for reasons
I'm searching my soul in vain
The truth is I got to seach elsewhere
But I'm scared to know what you think

I rewrite all I want to tell you
I'm cramming my bin with trash
Trash feelings that you'll think are silly
And tears of hopelessness that are all I have

These tears are keeping me up all night
Tears that fall because I don't exist
While your every breath fogs my eyes
I fall and burn and you don't feel a thing

All my nights are spent in a restless mess
And I wake up before dawn even breaks
How I wish for my life before I knew of you
Wish I could bury myself from all of this

-A. Tulsiani