Wilted Flowers

Strangers known to each other
In broken mirrors pieced together
Bits of reflections come close to me
Over these years the bits have ceased

Far away, though you breathe close
Fear in the moment I will lose
How much longer till we mend the way
The broken roads bleed and stain

Wilting flowers that once smiled
Are washed down by all this trying
The night is falling, it's closer still
You look though me, though the distance

I blank myself out just for you
Colour me with the brushes you choose
Empty out all that you can't see
Mend the roads and heal my wilted feet

-A. Tulsiani

For D... From J

"Love someone my dear
Or it'll all be a waste
Don't think of all my tears
I've never felt this way

I can't look at you now
You know I'm lying too
I can't love anyone else
Fake promises or true

But I'll be off tomorrow
Filled with guilt at sunrise
And I'll lie in his bed tomorrow
Dreaming of tonight

But love someone my dear
Or it'll all be a waste
Live my love through her
Just keep me alive someway"

-A.Tulsiani

Left behind

I felt my blood thicken
I felt it run
I felt all of me
Come undone

I felt the pain
The stab in my back
I felt all your words
Leak out of that

I saw the red defeat
Your smile, your victory
I felt my weight
Hit the floor and slump

I felt my hand raise
To grab hold of you
I felt you run away
And a trail of dust

-A. Tulsiani

Battles

I wrote this one in on 3/27/2008. Found it in my inbox. It's about my break up, when I ran away to get away from it all - and had alot of fun though :) What's amazing is these things "we said" were actually said. So For H...



With subtle hints I push you out of my life
Once my best friend, once my only vice
Now I pull my carpet, from under your feet
Don't stand on what you have no right to be

If you want the world, you can have yours
Why claim mine? I want my bit of peace
I try to fight, I succeed, I scream
But at the end of the day, you run back to me

I can't just tell you to go, with my emotions you play
When you have me you don't know what to do or say
If you love her so, be content - let me go
Throw me out of your life like you did before

I run away from you, miles away
You're not with me, but I still do as you say
Your leash on me seems like a new life
Keeps tugging on the strings of my heart and mind

You say that it'll never end, you'll follow me
Best friends, soul mates, a part of you always loving me
You kiss me then tell me it meant nothing to you
Who are you fooling? Both me and you?

You want my friendship, I want your love
I can't go back to things when they have changed so much
I feel cut out from your life, it seems strange to me
You're holding someone else, where I used to be

I tell you this, but you don't understand
I'm miserable with you, without that magic we had
You're miserable without me, can't imagine life
It's a battle I lose no matter how hard I fight

-A.Tulsiani

Again

Late tonight and again
I sit all alone
I sit still wondering
I'm all alone at home
All that clings to me
Are these teardrops that roll
Down my eye, my nose
And sit on my lips
If only it wasn't this
I would smile and it would
Disappear.

-A.Tulsiani